StacyCat’s World of Thought

Was FUCKING AMAZING.

Lets see, a quick recap. (Previously posted on my Live Journal, but slightly edited )

I instigated my second orgy in two months.

I played sexually with two beautiful women. One of which I may get to play with again

I fucked a huge cock with a woman’s hand inside my ass.

I let said huge cock fuck my ass, and I was able to take it. It was also his first time for any sort of anal play, and it was awesome. I now understand the need for deeper anal lube.

I had a horizontal rope suspension with a famous BDSM presenter. I loved it, and want to do more.

I got to beat up a pain slut.

I got to do a three top spanking scene.

I got to see and experience an absolutely amazing presenter, and participate in something that very very few people will ever do or conceive of.

I flirted with lots of people.

I bought fucking awesome spiky boots. Pictures coming soon, I promise.

I also bought Opening Up, and had Tristan sign it. I also mistook Tristan for a girl in my class.

I did a lot of talking and thinking about the scene and BDSM and submission. I was talking with a dominant from the above mentioned spanking scene about my current state of mind. Basically, I would like to take a step towards submission within a relationship, but I am not sure if I can handle it, either physically or emotionally. This dominant made the very practical recommendation that I try it, and see if I enjoy it. If I do or I dont, I have learned a very valuable lesson. The presenter afterward suggested that which scares us most is probably the very experience that we need to attempt. Thus, I will attempt it.

I cried with the needle play that I was seeking, which has led me to my realization that I really need to find a professional to help me deal with this. I have a few feelers out for kink and insurance friendly therapists in the area. (The answer is not “just stop playing” as I think the underlying reason, whatever it is, is affecting other portions of my life. Its just that physical pain will bring it out much faster than emotional work will.)

In short, it was fucking amazing. And, since then, I have now used “fucking” far too much as a descriptor.

If you would like more in-depth information about any of these items, drop me a comment and I will write more extensively about it!

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